I think I need to choose a career where I can be an analyst / researcher. Who would've thought? I remember just a few years ago, I staunchly maintained that I hated the idea of research but I do it EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE. AND I LOVE IT.
I don't do the whole rats-and-stats basic science research. I'm into the more qualitative data, but I like numbers and stats too, because apparently people think numbers are purely objective. HAH! Please, nothing is ever truly unbiased is it? But numbers do help in making things a little more concrete and tangible.
Anyway, in an attempt to figure out my life, I've decided to keep a spiral of all the research I've compiled. I'm adopting something I did in fifth grade, seventh and eighth grade called the ISN: Interactive Student Notebook. Back in grade school, it was essentially projects and assignments I did as a student that were kept in a spiral, which made studying and learning a lot easier since it's all in one place. Plus it's neat to flip through because it doubles as a timeline of your progression throughout the year.
So that's what I'm doing. Rather than writing out degree plans on loose-leaf paper and discarding them, I'm writing in my spiral to see how many times I change my mind. I've cut out research articles, program requirements, faculty research areas and everything else under the sun and taped them all into the spiral.
In an effort to include my parents in my educational decisions as much as possible, each time I have a new piece of research, I show my mom who then relays the info to my dad. One day it's public health, one day it's law school, one day it's physician assistant, the next it's professor / clinician-educator in emergency medicine. It's RIDICULOUS how indecisive I can be.
But I'll take it in stride and accept that this semester is meant to be this way. Let's figure out what I want to do, try and find a part-time job if possible, and analyze the sh*t out of every possible option.
By December though, it's time to stop analyzing and hiding behind past failures and fear of the future. There comes a time when waiting around and playing it safe are no longer viable options - I just have to jump in head first and hold on tight for whatever roller coaster ride I'm on. But until then... The Queen shall seek advice from her most trusted advisors (i.e. The Queen Mother and Father). =D
HMQD
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